{"id":1014,"date":"2010-07-21T18:05:11","date_gmt":"2010-07-21T18:05:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lyrehcworld.com\/blog\/?p=1014"},"modified":"2010-07-21T18:05:11","modified_gmt":"2010-07-21T18:05:11","slug":"another-fork-in-the-road","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/lyrehcworld.com\/blog\/index.php\/2010\/07\/21\/another-fork-in-the-road\/","title":{"rendered":"Another Fork In The Road"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>So many thoughts going through my head that I am finding it difficult to post anything on Facebook.\u00a0 It&#8217;s hard to post the crap that is going on in your life when it is big and there is so much of it being hurled at you all at once.<\/p>\n<p>Suddenly I find myself facing breaking up with my &#8220;boyfriend&#8221;.\u00a0\u00a0 That is very sad.\u00a0 It just isn&#8217;t going to work out.\u00a0 We just aren&#8217;t able to move beyond this together.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I guess we just didn&#8217;t realize how much we didn&#8217;t have in common because for the first year, whenever we spent time together, it was just us&#8230; into each other and hanging out with each\u00a0 other all day on a Saturday or whatever.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I always made sure the errands and things I had to do were all done before Saturday morning.\u00a0\u00a0 It was an awesome year.\u00a0 I thought we were building a great foundation for a good future together.\u00a0 Especially since we went on date night every Thursday night and then Saturday morning to Sunday afternoon we hung out together&#8230; and we did that consistently for 18 months.\u00a0 It was actually perfect for a busy girl like me with a lot on my plate.\u00a0 I thought it was ideal.\u00a0 But that is all this is or ever will be.\u00a0 Trying to have him involved in my life seems to be a road block.<\/p>\n<p>We have decided to go on our pre-planned Chicago trip\u00a0 in spite of everything and have a good time together.\u00a0 Which I am sure we will.\u00a0 We have decided to give it some time after that to see what happens.\u00a0 We have also determined that it is probably not going to work and that is sad for both of us.<\/p>\n<p>I wish I could fully describe how I feel.\u00a0 I wish I understood it myself.\u00a0\u00a0 This is not easy.\u00a0 Greg and I put 18 months of our lives into this and he tells me that there is a possibility he can be more open to the idea of really being with someone and really getting to know someone deeply and really loving someone.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I think I just finally came to the conclusion that the possibility is still very slim.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 And I wouldn&#8217;t even care so much about that&#8230; 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