Drive – Incubus

My new theme song. This one is great to sing to in the car really loud when nobody else is listening.

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can’t help but ask myself how much
I’ll let the fear take the wheel and steer.
It’s driven me before, and it seems to have a vague,
Haunting mass appeal.
But lately I’m beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel.

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I’ll be there with open arms and open eyes, Yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there..I’ll be there.

So, if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?
Aah-ah-oo-o-o.

It’s driven me before and it seems to be the way
That everyone else gets around.
But lately I’m beginning to find that when
I drive myself my light is found.

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I’ll be there with open arms and open eyes, Yeahhh
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there…I’ll be there.

Would you choose water over wine….hold the wheel and drive?

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I’ll be there with open arms and open eyes, Yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there..I’ll be there.
Do do do do do do do do do do do
Ohh wa oh
Do do do do do do do do do do do
Ohh wa oh

When I’m Gone – 3 Doors Down

I couldn’t have said this better myself.

There’s another world inside of me
That you may never see
There’re secrets in this life
That I can’t hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There’s a light that I can’t find
Maybe it’s too far away…
Or maybe I’m just blind…

Or maybe I’m just blind…

[Chorus]
So hold me when I’m here
Right me when I’m wrong
Hold me when I’m scared
And love me when I’m gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I’ll never let you down
Even if I could
I’d give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I’m here
Right me when I’m wrong
You can hold me when I’m scared
You won’t always be there
So love me when I’m gone

Love me when I’m gone…

When your education X-Ray
Cannot see under my skin
I won’t tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my friends
Roaming through this darkness
I’m alive but I’m alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone

[Chorus]

Or maybe I’m just blind…

[Chorus]

Love me when I’m gone…

Love me when I’m gone
When I’m Gone
When I’m Gone
When I’m Gone

Something Corporate – I Woke Up In A Car

This song reminds me of a time in my life

i woke up in new york city
from my sleep behind the wheel
caught a train to Poughkeepsie
and time stood still

she wrote me a letter from san diego
to qualify her luck
these flights connect through arizona
but i think i’ll stay stuck

so here i am
here i am
well i woke up in a car
i traced away the fog
so i could see the mississippi on her knees
i’ve never been so lost
i’ve never felt so much at home
please write my folks and throw away my keys
i woke up in a car
i woke up in a car

i met a girl who kept tattoos for homes
that she had loved
if i were her i’d paint my body
until all my skin was gone

she wrote me a letter as we passed through rockford
she said she won’t forget
maybe i do maybe i don’t
but i know i haven’t yet

so here i am
here i am
well i woke up in a car
i traced away the fog
so i could see the mississippi on her knees
i’ve never been so lost
i’ve never felt so much at home
please write my folks and throw away my keys
i woke up in a car
i woke up in a car

and maybe i could live forever
if not ever i had known
that you’d be waiting here whenever i am all alone

but here i am
well i woke up in a car
i traced away the fog
so i could see the mississippi on her knees
i’ve never been so lost
i’ve never felt so much at home
please write my folks and throw away my keys

well i woke up in a car
i traced away the fog
so i could see the mississippi on her knees
i’ve never been so lost
i’ve never felt so much at home
please write my folks and throw away my keys
i woke up in a car
i woke up in a car
i woke up in a car

Victim Of Changes – Judas Priest

This is a great song and Karl sings it very well, so it will always remind me of him.

Whiskey woman don’t you know that you are drivin’ me insane
The liquor you give stems your will to live and gets right to my brain
Don’t you know you’re driving me insane
You’re tryin’ to find your way through life
You’re tryin’ to get some new direction
Another woman got her man
She won’t find no new connection
Takes another drink or two, things look better when she’s through
Takes another look around, you’re not goin’ anywhere
You’ve realized you’re gettin’ old and no one seems to care
You’re tryin’ to find your way again
You’re tryin’ to find some new…
Another woman’s got her man
But she won’t find a new…
Takes another drink or two, things look better when she’s through
You ‘bin foolin’ with some hot guy
I want to know why is it why
Get up get out you know you really blew it
I’ve had enough, I’ve had enough, good God pluck me
SOLO (K.K./Glenn)
Once she was wonderful
Once she was fine
Once she was beautiful
Once she was mine…she was mine
Now change has come over her body, she doesn’t see me anymore
Now change has come over her body, she doesn’t see me anymore
Changes, changes, changes, changes
Victim of changes

Schism – Tool

This song could have been written for Mark and I.   So much history between us and so many challenges over the past 11 years…  I always thought that through it all, we would rediscover each other, but now it seems the pieces have crumbled.

I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them fall away
Mildewed and smoldering, fundamental differing,
Pure intention juxtaposed will set two lovers souls in motion
Disintegrating as it goes testing our communication
The light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us so
We cannot see to reach an end crippling our communication.

I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them tumble down
No fault, none to blame it doesnt mean I dont desire to
Point the finger, blame the other, watch the temple topple over.
To bring the pieces back together, rediscover communication.

The poetry that comes from the squaring off between,
And the circling is worth it.
Finding beauty in the dissonance.

There was a time that the pieces fit, but I watched them fall away.
Mildewed and smoldering, strangled by our coveting
Ive done the the math enough to know the dangers of a second guessing
Doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our communication

Cold silence has a tendency to atrophy any sense of compassion

Between supposed lovers
Between supposed lovers.

And I know the pieces fit.

Little Wing – Jimi Hendrix

As often as possible over the last few years, I have gone to see the Michael Bliss Band play all over San Diego County.  They are fantastic…to say the least.  They have a unique jazzy, funky, blues thing going on that is so fun to dance to and so much my style.  They seem to like the way I tear it up on the dance floor to their music and sometimes Michael comes down off stage and does a bit of dancing with me while he is singing…especially to Little Wing…they do an amazingly long, powerful instrumental jam at the end of this song that I lose my mind to on the dance floor.  So, tonight, they gave me an autographed copy of their CD and all of the band members signed it and they made reference to me being “Little Wing”.

Well shes walking through the clouds
With a circus mind thats running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
Thats all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind.

When Im sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
Its alright she says its alright
Take anything you want from me, anything
Anything.

Fly on little wing,
Yeah yeah, yeah, little wing

Live In A Hole – Pantera

This is my new theme song and I love to scream it when nobody is listening…

Full of grief I scream at the wind
Thought I heard the words of others
Imprison myself
And stay in a shell
I won’t let you in to have a story to tell
Things tend to drag me down
Don’t understand so they hate me now

(Chorus) My fear grips the will of stone
My fear grips I’ll die alone

I promised myself somewhere in the teenage life
I’d never submit to the ones I will not be like
Live in a hole
But stay close to my kind
Cause they understand what burns in my mind
I still feel incomplete
Friends are few and far between

3AM – Matchbox 20

This seems very appropriate for me right now

She says it’s cold outside and she hands me my raincoat
She’s always worried about things like that
She says it’s all gonna end and it might as well be my fault
And she only sleeps when it’s raining
And she screams and her voice is straining

[chorus]

She says baby
It’s 3 am I must be lonely
When she says baby
Well I can’t help but be scared of it all sometimes
Says the rain’s gonna wash away I believe it

She’s got a little bit of something, God it’s better than nothing
And in her color portrait world she believes that she’s got it all
She swears the moon don’t hang quite as high as it used to
And she only sleeps when it’s raining
And she screams and her voice is straining

[chorus]

She believes that life is made up of all that you’re used to
And the clock on the wall has been stuck at three for days, and days
She thinks that happiness is a mat that sits on her doorway
But outside it’s stopped raining

[chorus]

Holiday – Scorpions

This is one of Mark’s favorite songs and we went to the Scorpions concert tonight.  I am pregnant, so this will be the theme song for my child.

Let me take you far away
Youd like a holiday
Let me take you far away
Youd like a holiday

Exchange the cold days for the sun
A good time and fun
Let me take you far away
Youd like a holiday

Let me take you far away
Youd like a holiday
Let me take you far away
Youd like a holiday

Exchange your troubles for some love
Wherever you are
Let me take you far away
Youd like a holiday

Longing for the sun you will come
To the island without name
Longing for the sun be welcome
On the island many miles away from home
Be welcome on the island without name
Longing for the sun you will come
To the island many miles away from home

Man In The Box – Alice In Chains

This song will forever be etched in my mind as a reminder of my wedding and it always makes me smile.  The lyrics are short, but the song is long and it is the amazing beat of the song that really does it.

Im the man in the box
Buried in my shit
Wont you come and save me, save me

Chorus
Feed my eyes, can you sew them shut?
Jesus christ, deny your maker
He who tries, will be wasted
Feed my eyes now youve sewn them shut

Im the dog who gets beat
Shove my nose in shit
Wont you come and save me, save me