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Another Fork In The Road

So many thoughts going through my head that I am finding it difficult to post anything on Facebook.  It’s hard to post the crap that is going on in your life when it is big and there is so much of it being hurled at you all at once.

Suddenly I find myself facing breaking up with my “boyfriend”.   That is very sad.  It just isn’t going to work out.  We just aren’t able to move beyond this together.    I guess we just didn’t realize how much we didn’t have in common because for the first year, whenever we spent time together, it was just us… into each other and hanging out with each  other all day on a Saturday or whatever.    I always made sure the errands and things I had to do were all done before Saturday morning.   It was an awesome year.  I thought we were building a great foundation for a good future together.  Especially since we went on date night every Thursday night and then Saturday morning to Sunday afternoon we hung out together… and we did that consistently for 18 months.  It was actually perfect for a busy girl like me with a lot on my plate.  I thought it was ideal.  But that is all this is or ever will be.  Trying to have him involved in my life seems to be a road block.

We have decided to go on our pre-planned Chicago trip  in spite of everything and have a good time together.  Which I am sure we will.  We have decided to give it some time after that to see what happens.  We have also determined that it is probably not going to work and that is sad for both of us.

I wish I could fully describe how I feel.  I wish I understood it myself.   This is not easy.  Greg and I put 18 months of our lives into this and he tells me that there is a possibility he can be more open to the idea of really being with someone and really getting to know someone deeply and really loving someone.    I think I just finally came to the conclusion that the possibility is still very slim.     And I wouldn’t even care so much about that… let’s just take it day by day…. that’s perfectly fine with me.  What does get to me is the fact that he is so freaking worried about this shit that he freaks himself out to the point where he forgets to be flirty.  He forgets to sneak up behind me and push my hair aside while he lightly nibbles and kisses my neck…. and so on.      His fear of a deep lasting relationship is paralyzing any possibilities of it.

We have had several long talks in the past couple weeks.  The talks are good and we do well together in that regard.  The conclusion is what is sad.


Counter Install

Well, it has been a month since our cabinets were installed and we have been all this time with no counters and more importantly NO SINK!  The cabinets took a hit on my budget and I needed this last month to recover and get some cash together for counters and sink and faucet and disposal.

Today, Joe from Artistic Countertops and Coatings, LLC came and made us some very nice concrete acrylic custom counters and they are beautiful!

No Surprise – Daughtry

Well here it is. Six months ago I was celebrating the first year anniversary with the man I thought I might spend the rest of my life with and today I am realizing that it just will not work. It is quite a shame. I heard this song on the radio today and it just seemed fitting.

I’ve practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I’ve got it all down
And as I say it louder I love how it sounds
Cause I’m not taking the easy way out
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn’t have to give a reason why

It’s no surprise I won’t be here tomorrow
I can’t believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we’ll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn’t know how
Held onto it forever just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn’t have to give a reason why

It’s no surprise I won’t be here tomorrow
I can’t believe that I stayed till today
There’s nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There’s nothing here in this soul left to say
Don’t be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we’ll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that’s left your eyes
That’s why this comes as no, as no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it’s better than where we are now
But after going through this, it’s easier to see the reason why

It’s no surprise I won’t be here tomorrow
I can’t believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we’ll find this was no surprise

The kiss goodnight, it comes with me
Both wrong and right, our memories
The whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can’t keep
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that’s left your eyes
But I know in time we’ll find this was no surprise

Bar Wall Frame

Today in prep for the counters going in, Mike came over and built us a bar wall.

Palm Tree Trimming

Our palm trees are out of control and probably haven’t been trimmed in quite a while since the house was vacant and bank owned before we bought it.  Today, we hired a tree guy to climb up there and take care of them.  It was crazy to watch since the tallest one is about 25 feet tall.

Washing Dishes In The Backyard

Although we have our new cabinets in, we still do not have our plumbing and sink in place.  In the meantime, we have been washing dishes in the bathtub and the backyard.  Today we cooked some good food on the grill and Dan helped us clean up with the hose.

Cabinets Installed

Mike, Kerry and Brian came over today to install our new cabinets.   They were delivered a week ago and have been sitting in my garage waiting for this day to come.   It has been a super long process and a lot of sweat and hard work, but things are really starting to take shape!

Final Touches Before Cabinets

Tomorrow the cabinets are getting installed.  They have all been sitting in my garage waiting for this moment.  Tonight, Mom put some finishing touches with primer and we cleared everything out of the room for the cabinet guys.

Mudding and Primer

Finally! We are in the home stretch before the cabinets get installed.   Today was another full day of mudding the new drywall on the ceiling and walls and putting a coat of primer on everything.

Installing New Ceiling Drywall – Day 2

We started at 10am and finished at 9:30pm.  What a long day!  We managed to get most of the drywall up on the ceiling and around the upper wall.  This was a very tough job.  I am sure that Mike Holmes would not approve of our work, but I am pretty happy with the way it turned out (especially for a bunch of amateurs).

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